There are some lessons that bear repeating.
1. The emotionally unavailable man will never change, not even for you.
2. It is impossible to open a package of Oreos and eat just one. You have to do an entire row or none at all.
3. Your body deserves better than you likely give it in an average day.
There are more but these are the big three.
I seem to swing between being ultra aware and responsive to what my body needs or I tune it out altogether. For the last couple of weeks, I have ignored my body as it has screamed for more rest, less stress, better food and much needed quiet.
I have this inner voice that’s constantly pushing me to keep going when I don’t want to, that tricks me into not hopping on the treadmill when I know exercise would be invigorating, and that tells me to eat the fries because that’s what I really want even though I know I’ll be sluggish tomorrow.
Meanwhile, my body is asking for a break, begging for good nutrition, movement and rest. And I ignore it.
I rely on my body to get me through the day. It takes me everywhere I need to go even when I’m mean to it. It has never failed me but I fail it all the time.
How to do better? That’s the $64,000 question.
This week has been stressful and tiring. Healthy eating, exercise and stress management are really just a pipe dream, something to be put off until the weekend when I undoubtedly will crash.
We all go through times like this and the best we can do is the best we can do. I’m trying hard to remember that good choices breed more good choices and that what I do to my body today will effect how I feel tomorrow.
I know that I’m approaching a breaking point when I simultaneously want to run away on a trip and also hide in my quiet house with a package of cookies.
A trip may be in my future but the cookies will not.
For today, I’ll just keep pushing forward and make the best decisions possible. And then tomorrow, I’ll wake up and do it again.
Things will be better soon.